you know i…

I put some more music into the world.

you know i

My wife and I got married one-and-a-half years ago. It’s been a weird year and a half.

We got married and had a beautiful party with a bunch of great family and friends. We went on an amazing honeymoon in Puerto Rico. Right after that, America’s political landscape totally changed and outrage surrounded most dialogues around me. I almost wanted to quit my job. That same job resulted in an opportunity to live and work abroad in Berlin. I partly learned a new language and met a ton of amazing people I never would have otherwise met. My wife did too. She also got diagnosed with a life-changing, permanent disease. We traveled to more places around Europe. Speaking of travel, remember how we went to Puerto Rico? It’s been destroyed by a hurricane, and is still not fixed.

Tumultuous. Positives and negatives all over the place.

The album I released a month ago, You Know I, is a reworking of songs I had written at several points in my life – The Rain is new, and Insomnia has been sitting idle as a sad little piano piece since 2009. But these songs mold together with the theme of a constant tug between a yin and a yang: tragedy and ecstasy, anxiety and calm. Quiet rage that spills out in some places, only to be followed by quiet, somber reflection.

The title you know i? It’s about her. She knows I’m always down, and she knows I’m always around (hey, that’s a reference to the first lines of the title track) – for whatever mess life throws at us.

It’s the proudest I’ve been of a collection of songs I’ve written so far. I hope you enjoy it.

variations on a lonely theme

I like this piece a lot. So did the audience. Very few composers (and songwriters, for that matter) these days make full use of the bass guitar, and ones that do stand out to me. For this piece, I was focusing on complete destruction of the main theme I had written, both in the classical sense and in new ways. All the electronic sounds are sampled from the original recording I made of the theme – thus, I am making use of as much of the theme as I can.

I also like to loop things (thank you Steve Reich). I tend to do this frequently in the music I write, with the hope of something interesting coming out of it. Two sections of this piece are almost entirely structured on looping, and how melodies change the perception of that loop.

Special thanks to Max/MSP for making this piece possible. Max/MSP is a really cool and insanely powerful piece of software that I like to use for performing music.